We belong to each other

In high school I played softball. It was a passion and a calling. I saw myself on that team as a girl there to glorify God in every swing of the bat, every run to the base and every catch and throw. I had Bible verses written on my softball glove to remind me that God was faithful, that I could do everything through His strength. I was all in. I gave it everything I had. In February we would start our physical training with aerobics at the youth center. I would kick as high as I could when she said get those knees up ladies. I would jump and sweat and smile. When my coach made us lay on our backs and raise our feet up 6 inches I would grit my teeth and give it all I had. I was a ball player. When it came to game time I was on a fabulous team. We all worked really hard and most of us had talent. I played in left field and to be honest, was really good at it. Not many balls would get by me out there. Every pitch that went to that home plate I just anticipated would be a fly ball to left field. I was always ready. We played our season for 6 months totaling over 100 games. You would have to love it to to keep in on a season like that. Every year we were favored to win the European Championships, and we never did. My junior year I thought for sure we had it in in the bag. I had to play short stop for the tournament because our regular short stop had to go back to the states for college. The catcher, Melissa , was playing in the left field. She was a fantastic athlete. None of us felt like she was out of her league to be standing in my spot in left field. We were at a point in the final game when all we needed to do was get one more out and we would be the champs. I saw the long fly ball go out to left field. I made a note that it was an easy catch and was ready to collect my trophy. That long fly ball was going to exactly where Melissa was standing. She didn't have to move a bit. The game was in the bag. I was making acceptance speeches in my head. And then, Melissa did a terrible move, she started running forward, oh no! I watched my dreams of a championship fly right over Melissa's head. I knew that if I would have been there I would have caught that ball. I had caught that ball hundreds of times. It was an easy catch for a left fielder, but for a catcher, it was a night mare. We ended up losing the game because we didn't have the right person in left field because our short stop had to leave too early.

When you are on a team, the team needs you to do your best. They need you to come to practice, they need you to play the position you are given to the very best of your ability. In softball every player needs to be on their game. Each player is essential to winning. If some one is not committed and continually misses practice the whole team suffers. They need to learn to play together, to play off of one anothers rythms and style. They need to practice together. They need to practice at home just playing catch. The more a team practices the better they will be. A good coach will also see the strengths of each girl and put them on the field in the place that will best suit them. The team itself is one unit. When one person on the team is a slacker, the whole team suffers.

The church is like an athletic team. Each person has a vital role to play. Let me say it again. You have a vital role to play. Sweet sister, you are essential. You are here to make a difference. You are here to be a blessing. You are here to contribute. We need you to contribute. Last night we saw how God was calling us to believe in Jesus and to love our friends so much that we bring them to Jesus. We saw that Jesus is worthy and our friends are worth it. Today we are going to see the calling of God to minister not just to the individual but to minister in the context of the Body of Christ. To give our all to the whole family.

Romans 11:

33 Oh, how great are God’s riches and wisdom and knowledge! How impossible it is for us to understand his decisions and his ways!

34 For who can know the Lord’s thoughts?
    Who knows enough to give him advice?[l]
35 And who has given him so much
    that he needs to pay it back?[m]

36 For everything comes from him and exists by his power and is intended for his glory. All glory to him forever! Amen.

Romans 12

A Living Sacrifice to God

12 And so, dear brothers and sisters,[a] I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all he has done for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice—the kind he will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship him.[b] 2 Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.

Here we have the introduction of a discourse on the ways in which God needs to change our minds. He needs to rewire our thinking. We have thought for so long that life is about me and it is for me and I need to watch out for me that God has to get the me out of me and replace it with himself. We begin our reading with a reminder of who God is.

Romans 11 ends with: Oh, how great are God’s riches and wisdom and knowledge! How impossible it is for us to understand his decisions and his ways!

34 For who can know the Lord’s thoughts?
    Who knows enough to give him advice?[l]
35 And who has given him so much
    that he needs to pay it back?[m]

36 For everything comes from him and exists by his power and is intended for his glory. All glory to him forever! Amen.

We need to remember that God is great. He is God and we are not. If I am to ever be any good to the church, if I am ever to contribute anything at all I need to have the proper perspective of who is God. I need to know that He doesn't owe me anything. He doesn't need my advice. His wisdom and knowledge are beyond my understanding. God is God and I am not. I need to know that my place is at the foot of God's throne and not on his throne. Friends, I need to know that that reason I got out of bed this morning is not because of my own ability or strength. I got out of bed because God woke me up. He gave me air to breath and he kept my heart beating. I need to know that the life I live is not for my glory or accomplishment. It is not for my own pleasure or to make my dreams come true. I need to know that I am not the hero of my story. It was never my story to begin with. We begin our conversation about what it means to be a body with the idea that I am just a small part of a whole, and God Himself is creator and sustainer. We exist by His power and are intended for his glory. Let Him have it all. Let him have all the power and glory and honor. It belongs to Him.

And so Paul commends us to give our bodies to God because of all God has done for us. Give your body to God because He is God. In the NKJV is says “to present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service.” I love that phrase your “reasonable service”. It is reasonable to let your body be a living and holy sacrifice. God has given us everything and so it is right that we give everything we have back to him. In the NIV it says “this is your true and proper worship”. This is our worship. This is how we attribute worth and praise to God. So how do we really worship God? What is our reasonable response to God? We give Him all we have. It's that simple. We give Him everything because he is God. I like that He isn't just saying to give our spiritual being, the idea of God you can have my heart but I will keep control of my hands and feet. He is saying that He wants our hands and feet as well. He wants our entire lives, poured out before him.

Just a few weeks ago I was given an entirely new perspective on the idea of my life being an offering. We were reading Jenn Hatmaker's book Interrupted and she had an eye opening commentary on the Lord's Supper. She was saying that when Jesus said “Do this in remembrance of me” the verb tense was a present tense that required continual action.
Jenn says

Not only was Communion a symbolic ritual, but it was a new prototype for discipleship. “continuously make my sacrifice real, by doing this very thing” But what? What was the very thing Jesus was doing? He was becoming broken and poured out for hopeless people. He was becoming a living offering, denying Himself for the salvation and restoration of humanity. Obedience to Jesus' command is more than looking backward; it's a present and continuous replication of His sacrifice. We don't simply remember the meal; we become the meal too.

“Now you are the body of Christ” 1 Cor. 12:27

Doesn't this concept of being broken for others ring true? It's a spiritual dynamic manifested physically. Why is it so exhausting to uphold someone's heavy burden? Why are you spent from shouldering someone's grief or being an armor bearer? Why is it that lifting someone out of his or her rubble leaves you breathless? Because you are part of the body of Christ, broken and poured out, just like He was. Mercy has a cost: Someone must be broken for someone else to be fed. The sermon that changed your life? That messenger was poured out so you could hear it. The friends who stood in the gap during your crisis? Each embraced some sacrifice of brokenness for your healing. Anytime you say “that fed me, that nourished me”, someone was broken bread for your fulfillment.

Jenn Hatmaker's words challenge and convict me. To follow Jesus' command to do this in remembrance of me we lay our lives out before God and say break me, pour me out, use me to feed the hungry. Use me to minister to the hurting. We lay our lives out before God and say, You are Lord. You Lead. Present your bodies as living sacrifices because this is the way we worship God. What is it to worship? It is to say to God you are enough. I trust you. I give you all that I am and say you are High and Lifted Up. I trust you with my body. Use me. We need God to change our minds, so He can change our lives, so He can make the church more what she is meant to be in a broken world. We need God to do what Romans 12:2 says to do:

Let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.

Here is where the teaching in Romans 12 becomes more specific. What does it actually look like to walk according to God's good, pleasing and perfect will? What does it mean for me in a practical sense?

We Belong to Each Other

Romans 12:3 Because of the privilege and authority[c] God has given me, I give each of you this warning: Don’t think you are better than you really are. Be honest in your evaluation of yourselves, measuring yourselves by the faith God has given us.[d] 4 Just as our bodies have many parts and each part has a special function, 5 so it is with Christ’s body. We are many parts of one body, and we all belong to each other.

I love that Paul is telling us to have a sober opinion of ourselves. I started wondering why would he start a discourse on the body of Christ with a statement like “don't think you are better than you really are.” I kind of wonder if it is because of what he is going to say next. Don't look at yourself as independent from the body. Don't think you could make it at all without the church. If you have a high and lofty opinion of yourself you may fall into the trap of arrogance and independence. You may think you can do this Christian life on your own and pull away from fellowship. You may also pass judgment on your brothers and sisters and not value what they have to offer because you think you are so much better than they are. The bottom line is verse 5, We are many parts, and we belong to each other. We need each other. I have a responsibility to you and you to me. Let that sink in a bit. We belong to each other. That means you just lost your autonomy. You just lost your cultural identity “I'm and independent American and I can do it on my own”. We so strongly value our strength and freedom that we have a hard time swallowing the idea that we belong to anyone, even to God and certainly to the church. We need God to transform our minds. We do belong to each other. Just like when I was on a ball team in high school, we were a team. We needed each other. No matter how good the star player was she couldn't play all the positions. Look at each other and say “I belong to you”.

Is that hard to say? Does saying that I belong to you mean that I have to trust you on a deeper level. Does it mean at some place I am giving authority to you or to the body over me? If I yield to the body of Christ, what becomes of me? This is difficult teaching. I struggle with it too. To say that I belong to you also means that you have a role in caring for me. A friend of mine helped me to see that when we something belongs to us, we are responsible for it. We care for it. Zack is my son so I do everything I can to care for him and to protect him. If I belong to you then you have a role in protecting my heart, but I have to trust you with my heart. Right now, just being in front of you pouring out to you the vision and heart that God has given me, I stand vulnerable. What will you do with this gift of grace I extend to you through God's Holy Spirit? I have to share it because the message that God has given to me, so long as it is from Him, belongs to you. I can't hold it back, whatever God has given to me, doesn't belong to me. It is yours, it is His.

Romans 12: 6

 In his grace, God has given us different gifts for doing certain things well. So if God has given you the ability to prophesy, speak out with as much faith as God has given you. 7 If your gift is serving others, serve them well. If you are a teacher, teach well. 8 If your gift is to encourage others, be encouraging. If it is giving, give generously. If God has given you leadership ability, take the responsibility seriously. And if you have a gift for showing kindness to others, do it gladly.

In His grace, God has given gifts. Dear friend, you have been given gifts from God through grace. These are not gifts you earned. These are not gifts just based on your natural inclination or talent. These are miraculous gifts from a miraculous God. I remember the first time I got up to pray in front of a large group. I was 21 and working for the Centrifuge youth camp at Ridgecrest Baptist Conference Center. I stepped onto the stage and I was overcome with the peace and presence of the Holy Spirit. I was not afraid, I was anointed. I knew God was with me and He was blessing people through the prayer that was prayed. Please understand how significant this was for a 21 year old Judy. I had struggled with fear of rejection my entire life. I did not feel comfortable standing in front of a crowd. I was shy. The idea of being the center of attention in front of any group of folks was intimidating, let alone a room of 700. Every part of my natural self would have run away from being up front, but God. He gave me a gift to lead others in prayer. He was cultivating it in me as a 21 year old fuge staffer. He has been kindling the gifts of leadership and teaching and prophesy in me for over 20 years, but I am such an unlikely candidate. I spent my childhood hiding behind my Mom's purse. I laid in bed at night as a middle schooler wondering why people wanted to be my friend. I wasn't that girl who was like “look at me”. To be honest, I still don't like being the center of attention but I love for God to be the center of attention and when I proclaim Him, I feel his presence. I feel his blessing, and I love it. When I walk in the gifts that God has given me I am energized. I love to be used by God.



Let's just stop and let this list of amazing supernatural gifts from Romans 12 sink into our minds and hearts. These are gifts of prophecy, service, giving, teacher, leadership, evangelism. Imagine if we could see all of these gifts represented in our body. Imagine if all the saints in our community were walking in the Holy Spirit with a transformed mind fixed on Jesus and just employing these gifts to serve the body. I want to see these gifts put to use. What is God stirring in you? What is he giving you a heart to step into and do in His name. That is right, we are called to be in Christ, but doing is a natural outpouring of our being in Christ. We don't just be, we do.

In John 14:12-18 Jesus makes this amazing promise “

12 “Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father. 13 And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. 14 If you ask[c] anything in My name, I will do it.

15 “If you love Me, keep[d] My commandments. 16 And I will pray to the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever— 17 the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you. 18 I will not leave you orphans; I will come to you.

You heard it right, Jesus said you will do even greater things than these, because He sent the Holy Spirit to live inside of believers. The Holy Spirit dwells in you. Let Him out! Let Him do his work. Don't keep the Spirit of God locked away in some little safe place. Get to know the Holy Spirit. So many Christians are just ordinary and their spiritual gifts are in infancy because they do not cultivate a relationship with Jesus. They don't want the Holy Spirit to take control of their lives. Imagine, if everyone in our community was spending time with Jesus, letting the Holy Spirit have his way with them, what would we look like as a body? Healthy. Each person would be playing the role they were meant to play. There would not be one guy doing the job of 5 guys, or one lady doing the job of 10. Each Sojourner would be supernaturally walking in the Spirit of God and in the giftedness that God has given to them. We wouldn't see burn out. We would see people more blessed than ever because friend, when you walk in the giftedness that God has given you it feels good. You may feel spent, but it will be a good spent. You may feel challenged but it will be the kind of challenge you know you are made for. How can I encourage you more? You are gifted! Give that gift to the body. Let the Holy Spirit fill you in such a way that you are bursting with desire to serve God's people and the unbelieving world. Get to know that place of giftedness. Try it out, practice, apply it. Cultivate it. Let God take you out of your comfortable places and bring you into a place that feels risky, a place where you feel out of your league. That is the place you will experience the transforming work of the cross. That is the place you will see miracles happen, in you and around you.

And finally we close with the greatest of all supernatural gifts. Love.

9 Don’t just pretend to love others. Really love them. Hate what is wrong. Hold tightly to what is good. 10 Love each other with genuine affection,[e] and take delight in honoring each other. 11 Never be lazy, but work hard and serve the Lord enthusiastically.[f] 12 Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying. 13 When God’s people are in need, be ready to help them. Always be eager to practice hospitality.

14 Bless those who persecute you. Don’t curse them; pray that God will bless them. 15 Be happy with those who are happy, and weep with those who weep. 16 Live in harmony with each other. Don’t be too proud to enjoy the company of ordinary people. And don’t think you know it all!

We belong to each other. We are meant to live our lives as a body together. The bond between us is deeper than our ordinary family. The Holy Spirit of God fills us with His presence and brings us to true unity. Let God fill you with love for the body. Let Him fill you with delight in honoring each other. Even now I pray that God will fill each of us with a deep love for Himself and His church, and out of that love flowing through us we would all serve the body in the way we are called to serve. We would all love the body and meet her with hospitality and openness. This is your family. Live life with her. Serve God's Kingdom with her, broken and poured out, serve.

Come Out of that Veil

I feel like the church has been shrouded in a veil.  It is as if we were too much for the world and so instead of just being the radiant life of Christ in a dark place we just threw a robe over the church so that her brilliance doesn't offend. We don't stand out because we don't want to.  When Moses came down off the mountain after visiting with God his face was so brilliant the people were afraid of him, so he wore a veil. The people couldn't handle the glory of God and so Moses had to hide his face.  He had seen God and he was changed, but his change was too much for an unbelieving Israel. His change was better left hidden.  

We have seen God. We have beheld him in holy places where He has met with us and drawn us into intimacy with Himself. Can you think of moments when you just spent time in God's presence? Can you think of a time when He was so clearly evident that you just knew if you moved around too much you would bump into Him?  Instead of risking running into a Holy God you just got down on your face and laid there, holy and still in His presence, soaking in the heat of His fire.  I have been in that place. I have been in those holy moments with God and I am grinning ear to ear just thinking about them. I love to be there, I live to be there. But then there is this morning when the world is dark and I sit here at my computer. Is this a holy moment? Is this a moment where I will wear a veil on my face to hide the lingering evidence that I belong to Jesus?  I've got to come out from that veil. Dear sister, you have to come out from that veil.  "Those who look to the Lord are radiant, their faces are never covered with shame (ps 34:5)".  Shame is not the facade we wear, we wear radiance.

But the veil is so easy, if you were to just go about with the radiance of Christ looming before you people would think you odd.  It is actually more than that isn't it?  If we were really honest with ourselves we would see that our veil has many more names that just shame.  We cover our true identities because we don't know our true identities.  We wear shame because we don't know at the depths of who we are that we are beautiful. We had been told for so long that we are too much, not enough, we don't have anything to contribute. We are selfish, lazy, not articulate, not outgoing enough, too outgoing, we are abandoned, rejected. We have been told lies, sweet sisters, we have been believing lies. I think one of the most pervasive lies is that you really are not that significant.  You don't have much to offer, just blend into the crowd.  Don't stand out, don't shine.  If you draw attention to yourself you will be rejected. People won't like what they see. You will be found wanting.  So we wear the veil. It is safe under the veil. If you can't really see me, then you can't really reject me. If I hold back long enough, I will lose perspective of what I am holding back. I will begin to believe the face I project to the world. I will believe I am not that special.

2 Corinthians 3:18 says
And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate^[a] the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.

Sweet friends, it is our unveiled face that reveals the glory of the Lord. It is your fullness revealed that shows the world that God is real, He is alive. He is living inside you and inside the church. He makes us radiant.  It is time to throw off the veil of shame. It is time to throw off the deception that you are not good enough for Jesus.  He has transformed you, and is still transforming you. He has chosen to make you a living temple of His presence. We have to let Him out!  Don't throw a veil on the beauty that the living God has chosen to use to show off His glory. Don't hide any more.  You be in Christ. You begin to believe that you are indeed that royal priesthood and holy nation, that woman belonging to God. You begin to believe that Jesus has called you out of darkness and into light. He has called you daughter, son...  He has called you by name.  

Look to the Lord and you will be radiant. Shame will not be your mask any more. It was at one time, dear friend, you wore shame because it belonged to you. It was yours and you earned it by the blood sweat and tears of your own sin. But can you just see Jesus today, leaning over your hunched shoulders, looking straight into your beautiful eyes, seeing you behind your mask?  His hands are raised today, cupping your cheeks, removing the mask.  He already took that mask upon himself and he has hidden it in the deepest oceans as far from you as the east is from the west. I can sense him over me in this moment,   saying "Judy, come out of the veil". I want to show the world around that I am loving and kind. I want to show that I am real and relevant, still moving, still on my throne and yet close by you.  I want to show them Jesus through you. 

A Mat and a Bit of Faith

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A Mat and a Bit of Faith

If you looked at snapshots of my growing up years you would find the backgrounds to always be different places, different states, different countries. I was in 11 different elementary schools. Moving around so often made my friendships a mile wide and an inch deep. I honestly didn't want them to be that way. I wanted just a few friends that I could really count on to know me and to know them. I wanted faithful friends that I knew would be at school and we could sit together at lunch and hang out on the weekends. I had some “best friends” but to say that any of those friendships were deep or intimate would be an overstatement. We were in high school, all of us nomads, and all of us knew how to guard our hearts. When you move around as much as I did and the kids I went to school with did, you learn to protect yourself from the hurt of leaving by not letting people really into your heart. You learn to insulate yourself from losing a friend because you know they will only be there for a few years. I learned to have shallow friendships, but my heart was longing for so much more. My heart was longing for someone to really know me. You know what I mean? To know me and to still want to hang out with me. I wanted someone who could know that I felt insecure and be able to encourage me, or to know I was afraid to be able to comfort me. I wanted a true friend.

I know that Jesus was that true friend. He was a comfort and an encouragement. He was my best friend and still is the one who knows me the fullest and still loves me intimately. Let's thank Jesus for being that friend and that lover of our souls, but let's not let that be an excuse for us to say that we don't need to be vulnerable with each other or we don't need to really know each other because Jesus is doing that. I want us as a community to be willing to go to those deep places of relationship much like the guys in the passage we are about to study.

Tonight we are going to focus on Mark 2:1-12

2 1-5 After a few days, Jesus returned to Capernaum, and word got around that he was back home. A crowd gathered, jamming the entrance so no one could get in or out. He was teaching the Word. They brought a paraplegic to him, carried by four men. When they weren’t able to get in because of the crowd, they removed part of the roof and lowered the paraplegic on his stretcher. Impressed by their bold belief, Jesus said to the paraplegic, “Son, I forgive your sins.”

6-7 Some religion scholars sitting there started whispering among themselves, “He can’t talk that way! That’s blasphemy! God and only God can forgive sins.”

8-12 Jesus knew right away what they were thinking, and said, “Why are you so skeptical? Which is simpler: to say to the paraplegic, ‘I forgive your sins,’ or say, ‘Get up, take your stretcher, and start walking’? Well, just so it’s clear that I’m the Son of Man am authorized to do either, or both . . .” (he looked now at the paraplegic), “Get up. Pick up your stretcher and go home.” And the man did it—got up, grabbed his stretcher, and walked out, with everyone there watching him. They rubbed their eyes, incredulous—and then praised God, saying, “We’ve never seen anything like this!”

People came to see Jesus. They knew something that folks around us today have lost sight of. They knew that Jesus was worthy. He was worthy of the trip. He was worthy of adoration and devotion. He was worthy of hours of their time and attention. He was amazing. Miraculous. He did things that they had never seen before, or even dreamed of seeing. I want us to get a better glimpse of Jesus. He was beautiful. He was loving, kind. Can you imagine the look on his face as he leans over a hurting Momma, wipes tears from faces, declares love and freedom. Can you imagine the Jesus that little kids just flocked to? Can you imagine this Jesus? Have our hearts become too hard to fathom a Jesus that would be so powerful and tender that these men who carried their friend on his mat would say, forget the crowd. We are going in through the roof. My heart is longing to know that Jesus. My heart is crying out to remember the Jesus who met me, saved me. I have to stop to remember him, to remember what it was like to be lost and broken. I have to do it on purpose, with purpose to say I remember you Lord, when I was an 8th grade girl all caught up in popularity, all broken from rejection and failure. I remember you calling me to stop trying to earn my way to a spot in heaven. I remember how beautiful you were the night you settled into my heart and became my saviour, my friend, you became my Father and brother. I remember that as if it was yesterday. I need to keep remembering who my Jesus is. I need to keep remembering Him because I so easily forget. I get so caught up in the distractions of life that I forget that Jesus is worthy of my time. He is worthy of my passion, my heart, my devotion. Friends, these 4 guys knew something about Jesus that I want to know at the depth of my heart. They knew he was worthy. They knew he was the only one in all the world who could come through for them. He was the only one who could heal their friend. I love these guys. I want to sit down and have coffee with them and let them tell me their story. Can you imagine how it might go? Maybe it was something like this...



We heard that Jesus had come back to Capernaum and we couldn't wait to go and see him. We would have run, we would have been there earlier but we had a buddy with us, and he couldn't walk. We had to carry him. He was not light, in fact I would say he was a heavy load. But man, we were going to bring him to Jesus. We were going to set him at Jesus feet and watch the miracle that we had all hoped for our entire lives. We wanted this for our friend, we wanted it for ourselves. We believed Jesus could and would bring healing to our friend. When we finally arrived to the place Jesus was speaking we were totally bummed out. The crowd beat us to him. They were everywhere. People were craning their necks to get a glimpse of him. Mommas were carrying their sick babies, old men were hunched over trying to get their way into seeing the Rabbi. We wanted to see Jesus, and all we saw was a crowd of folks who wanted to see him as much as we did, who needed him like we did. At first we were discouraged but we knew we could not give up. We were like, we will go through the roof if we have to. And wouldn't you know it, that is exactly what we did. We took our friend over to the house and we hoisted him up onto the roof. My buddies and I began removing roof tiles. We had this nervous excitement. We didn't know what Jesus would say or do. Would we get into trouble? Would people get mad at us for going to the front of the crowd? We didn't care enough to stop our plan. We kept digging. And there it was, light peaking through the tile roof, Jesus's voice getting louder. We were making it through. A few more goes at this and we would have a hole we could be proud of, a hole we could use to lower our friend right at Jesus's feet. Oh man, what would happen next? We didn't know. We held our breathe as we lowered our friend down to Jesus. And then there he was, laying on his mat in front of the man who could change his life forever.



Jesus looked at our friend with love in his eyes. He recognized our friends faith and our faith. He was happy that we believed in him. He declared my friends sins to be forgiven, he called my friend Son. Can you imagine being called Son by this man? He was the Rabbi that cast out demons. He was one who healed the sick. He was like the prophets we read about all our lives, and he looks at my friend, with love in his eyes and declares my friend to be forgiven and to be son. Moments later a discussion begins, he addresses the religious people and asks them which is easier, to say your sins are forgiven or to say get up and walk. We didn't know. We were not expecting our friend to become some sort of object lesson. Here Jesus was using him as an example, that not only could Jesus bring healing, which he did for my friend, but that he could forgive sins. We looked through that hole in the roof with complete amazement at what was happening under our perched frames. Jesus was schooling the religious academy and my friend was being shown as the one who had faith. I was the one Jesus was rewarding because of my faith. I got to see my friend take up his mat, right there in front of all the important people, and become important. He wasn't just that sinner who laid on his mat helpless anymore. He was a man commended for his faith, forgiven of his sins, and walking around. To be honest with you, when we left there my friend wasn't walking, he was running, he was jumping up and down. We kept telling the story to each other the whole way home, and then the next day, and the next day after that. You just don't get tired of a story like that. We thought we were crazy to lower him through that roof. We were like our parents are going to kill us. Instead, we got life. We got Jesus. He loved us for our faith. He is amazing. You have got to get to know Him.



Can you just imagine the stories these guys would go on to tell about Jesus and about how he healed their friend. I love this story. I love the audacity these 4 men had to remove tiles from the roof and lower their friend to the feet of Jesus. That is what it is all about isn't it. We have this amazing saviour and we live in a world surrounded by so much pain, so many needs, so many lost, so many broken and we can bring them to Jesus. We can present them at the feet of Jesus. But why don't we? Why when a friend tells us she is hurting do we just look at her with pity and we may try to relate for a minute but we just move on to an easier topic. We don't want to go to those uncomfortable places with our friends because it is so much easier to talk about how the kids are doing or work is going or what we are making for dinner. Our relationships remain superficial and we are really not much help to anyone.


The invitation Jesus is giving us is to be like those 4 guys. In order to do that, to be that we need a change of heart. We need to believe Jesus is actually worthy. I think one of our biggest issues is that we don't really believe Jesus to be healer in the first place. We don't think he will come through so we don't bother to address him. We don't go to him on behalf of our friends because we don't really think He is involved. I know what you are saying, how dare you say that? How dare you say that I don't believe Jesus. I know, I have to ask myself the same question. Am I really believing Jesus for my situation? Am I really believing Jesus is as beautiful and worthy as the men in this story believed. Do I really believe He will come through for me. Take a moment to think about what is causing you anxiety right now? What are you worried about? That is a place you are not believing Jesus. You are not trusting His plan for that area of your life. You aren't trusting that He is good and that He is strong. It is a sad reality that the reason we don't bring our friends to Jesus is because we are not convinced Jesus is the answer for them. Sweet sisters, he is the answer for all of us. We have to let him renew our minds to bring us to a place of living out the belief that Jesus is the answer.

The second aspect of this story is also challenging. Our four friends didn't go to Jesus for themselves, they went to bring a friend in need. We don't bring our friends to Jesus because we honestly don't have time for them. I have had many friends come to me with broken hearts and sadly I have dismissed them. I have had to get on about my business instead of stopping to bring them to Jesus. Sure I felt bad about it afterward, but then I forget about it, and keep on being busy. God was asking me to pray for a friend for quite sometime. I knew he wanted me to just wrap my arms around her sweet neck and pray the blessings of God and of healing on my friend. One night she told me she was physically hurting and I knew that God was opening up an opportunity for me to pray for her, instead I gave her a pitying look, a bit of a hug, and went back to enjoying the youth dessert auction. I was bidding on a cake and it was an intense war for the Nothing Bundt Cake that was donated. How could I have missed the mark on that one? In that moment, even though God was leading me to pray for my friend I didn't think that call to prayer was more important that my bundt. Friend, I decided that night that when someone tells me she is hurting, or her kids are a mess, or her heart is a mess, I pray, right there and then I pray the blessings of God on her, because she is worth it. She is important to me, she is beloved of God. I don't want to miss an opportunity to bless her. I don't want to miss a chance to be used in her healing. If I believe Jesus is who the Scriptures say he is, and I believe he is loving and good and healer, then I will pray. If I believe my friend is a sweet joy to God and a called out daughter of the king of kings, created in His very imagine, then you better believe I will pray. If I see that friend who doesn't yet believe but I know she is made in God's very image and is one Jesus loves, then yes, I will pray. We can't miss these opportunities to bless our sisters and brothers with prayer.

What makes going to you for counsel, a shoulder to cry on, or a praise to rejoice in any different than going to a non believer? What makes your friendships with sisters any different than friendships non Christians' share? Sweet sisters, they must be different. My friendships with my sisters in Jesus should not remain at the superficial world of talking Auburn or Alabama football. They need to go deeper than our next recipe or sale at Publix. Our friendships need to be honest, deep, Christ focused. We need to be able to share with one another where we are struggling, where we have failed. We need to be able to rejoice with each other in areas of blessings. I need sisters who will pray for me and will pray the blessings of God over me. I need sisters who can help me study God's word and will share with me what God is doing to transform their own hearts. I need sisters willing to challenge me in areas in which God is bringing growth in my life. We need our friendships to be free of the fear of rejection, bitterness, envy, lies, gossip. We need our friendships in Christ to be always pointing us to the gospel. We need Gospel Friends. I need friends who esteem Jesus and see Him as the answer to my hurting heart, and I need friends who love me enough to take me to His feet. I want to be that friend. I have friendships like that, and I want to go deeper in them. Friends, your sisters in Christ need your heart. You Saviour deserves your heart.

Broken and Poured Out

I can't seem to get the concept of being broken and poured out from my mind.  If Jesus in his final meal with his friends told them "do this in remembrance of me" and he was indeed talking about the breaking of the bread and the drinking of the cup as Jenn Hatmaker proposes in her book Interrupted, then I want to walk in obedience and surrender to the call.  I want to be broken and poured out when God calls me to serve.  Don't worry, being broken and poured out doesn't mean a person is pitiful and slobbering tears all day long. It is a matter of the heart being open to the move of the Holy Spirit. It is a matter of letting go of self and the innate desire to preserve oneself and to stay in a safe, comfortable, challenge free state, and letting God have his way with you. I want God to have His way with me. 

I am speaking at a ladies retreat at my church. They are all dear to me. I want to give them everything God has given me to extend. I want to give them the word that God has impressed on my heart and I want to challenge them to live in deep community, filled with His Holy Spirit.  I want us to be a community of Jesus that doesn't hold back our hearts and our passions. I am weary of holding back. I am worn out from subdued Christianity.   Let's just give Jesus everything we have, all of our energy, all of our hearts and lay them out before the others and let them experience the love and grace of God through us.

Yesterday I had an amazing day. I spent the entire day with my sweet boy, Zack. I didn't have to share him at all. We did errands and we played trains. We watched movies of when he was 2 meeting Mickey and Whinny the Pooh at Disneyworld. We had a special day. I realized that so much of my time with Zack is divided. I am checking facebook, making dinner, cleaning, trying to get something done and I just miss him. He misses me too. He wants some time of undivided attention from Mom. I need to give him that time. It is good for our relationship and for our hearts. In a sense, it is a time of being broken and poured out for my boy. I say to Zack, I am yours today. I love you. What do you want to do?  I know we have to get things done.  Moms have lots to do, but yesterday was nice.  To be honest most Moms live their lives in a state of broken and poured out. They are constantly serving family and friends.  It is a glimpse of the gospel right there over your vacuum cleaner and bent over a sparkling clean toilet.  Broken and poured out... giving it your all... serving with the passion of being a blessing to those you love, those you are called to serve.

This weekend I want the women of Sojourn to step into the challenge of being broken and poured out. I want us to step into the call of giving our bodies, minds, hearts, souls, lives to Jesus. I want us to serve the body with all the giftedness that God has given to us and to hold nothing back. I want us to serve our husbands, children, friends, coworkers. I want us to serve the poor and lonely, the hurting and afraid. I want to stop living such a Judy centered life and live the life that God has called me to live.  If you want to gain life, you must lose life.

^{Mark 8:34} Then he called the crowd to him along with his disciples and said: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. ³⁵ For whoever wants to save their life^[b] will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me and for the gospel will save it. 

^{Mark 9: 35 Sitting down, Jesus called the Twelve and said, “Anyone who wants to be first must be the very last, and the servant of all.”}

^{These passages in Mark come with a secret promise. If you lay your life down, God will bless it, God will bless you.  I am going to venture to say that in laying down your life you will find your life more full than you ever dreamed possible.}  

 

Speak for the Trees

Jeff and I just returned from a trip to California. It was absolutely perfect.  Zack was able to stay home with Nanny and Grampy and was very well taken care of and totally entertained.  Jeff and I were on our own, well, us and Tim Keller who preached to us for hours in our rented Jeep.  We went to see the Giant Sequoias in Sequoia National Park, King's Canyon National Park and Yosemite.   We saw a bunch of trees, really, really, big amazingly graceful and beautiful trees.  I am not usually the sort of girl to just stare at trees or want to drive 6 hours so we can see them, but this trip was different and these trees were different. These trees are ancient.  They began as saplings when Jesus was getting his feet dirty in a lake side fishing village.  They are over 2,000 years old. They tell a story.

They stand nearly 300 feet tall and have a trunk diameter of up to 40 feet.  The bark on the trees is up to 3 feet thick and filled with tannin to protect them from fire and insects. They are built to survive. They are built to reach to the top of the canopy and collect the sun, their roots reach out as much as 150 feet just 6 feet below the surface to collect as much of the precious rainfall these trees could possible gather in the arid Sierras.  They only grow in a narrow band on the Eastern Side of the Sierra Nevada mountains.  

They are adapted for one purpose, and one place, and there is a surprisingly essential ingredient to their survival that humans nearly snuffed out for 100 years.  Here lies the lesson for our lives.  They need fire to propagate.  They need fire to thrive.  The forest service decided fire was dangerous (a no brainer to most of us) and so they extinguished the natural fires caused by lightning in the forest for nearly 100 years.  Then someone realised that new trees were not growing.  The forest floor had become grown up with white birch trees and debris.  The little seeds would not be able to find a home or compete for sunlight in such a grown up environment.  It was more than that though,  the trees themselves hold their pine cones hundreds of feet above the forest floor. They remain on their branches safe and green, until fire comes.  The heat from the fire causes the cones to dry up and to drop their seeds, millions of them.  These little seeds, about the size and appearance of an oatmeal flake fall from their high perch to a forest floor that is being fertilised by the ashes of the fire.  One forestry worker said the seeds fell like snow covering the forest floor.  Out of that fire will come thousands of saplings, some will make it to become a mature tree in 500 years, others will be choked out and go back to the earth.  But some will end up looking like this:

 

It challenges me to think of fire as being a necessary in life.  

Hebrews 12:29 "Do you see what we’ve got? An unshakable kingdom! And do you see how thankful we must be? Not only thankful, but brimming with worship, deeply reverent before God. For God is not an indifferent bystander. He’s actively cleaning house, torching all that needs to burn, and he won’t quit until it’s all cleansed. God himself is Fire!"

God Himself is a fire.  The presence of God on Israel's journey through the wilderness was marked by fire.  The burning fire pot in Genesis 15 was God's presence.   In Acts, it was tongues of fire that came down on the church to show that the Holy Spirit had come to reside with them and in them.  God himself, the fire.  Fire burns, it purifies, it consumes the dross of our lives, the yucky sinful guck that has long weighed heavy on our hands and hearts. It cuts deep and close and leaves only what is worth having in the first place.  It hurts.  We want to shield ourselves from the close watch of the Holy Spirit's gaze. We want to insulate our hearts from really getting close enough to the hot blazing fire of God's presence. We keep our hearts from the closeness of God so we can hold on to the things that seem safe and comfortable.  

There is a danger in not letting God do continual refinement in our lives.  The Great Trees had to undergo intense fires because the forest was not cleaned out by smaller fires. The fuel for the fires accumulated on the forest floor and even their genetically designed fire resistance was compromised. Some lost the battle to fire, others bear the scares of the fires that did not have to be so hot, if only the fire was allowed to take the course of God's design... a little at a time... only what the trees could bear...   The tree above bears the marks of fire.  Over time, it will heal.

I started this blog thinking the fire in the forest symbolised trials.  My mind is changed. The fire is God.  Many churches have asked the Holy Spirit to not be active in their communities. It just felt so much safer and predictable to run it themselves without the interference of a God who is not so safe.  I am saying today, Lord come and be that consuming fire in the church. Come and clean the dross of our complacency and control freak nature. Come and burn up our pride so that all that remains is your Sweet, Powerful, Awesome Presence, and a church that loves like Jesus, lives like Jesus, knows Jesus.  A church that grows, that shares the gospel, where the seeds of truth just fall from our branches like snow on the world around us.

God you are worth it. You do all things well.

A house full of stuffies

I keep having this precious picture in my mind of Zack laying in his bed with his Elmo on his left and Mickey and Pluto cuddled together on his right side. Sound asleep surrounded by his friends Zack looks content and peaceful. He really is sweet. The challenge I have been thinking about is the 3 friends he was sleeping with, his little bits of security because it is so hard to go to sleep by yourself. For Zack it is really sweet and precious that he values the friendship of his inanimate buddies, but for me it is not so cute. What are my little stuffies that I have surrounded myself with for a sense of security? What are the objects that I feel like I need to have in order to be at peace, to rest? It becomes challenging really quickly.

I have just started reading Jenn Hatmaker and I think I would just as soon put it down and forget all about it except that I told the ladies at my church that we would be studying it in our Tuesday Bible Study, so I am pretty much committed. I need to be careful in the future what I get myself into. Yesterday I was reading the first chapter of Interrupted and thinking about all the starving children in the world, very aware of my full cupboards. I probably have 20 boxes of cereal in there, are their kids in my city who have none? Probably, but I would rather not think about it because if I think too hard and long on it my comfortable life may not be so comfortable, and God may pull the stuffies right out from under me. I wonder how many things that are collecting dust in my house or are stored up in boxes could be sold and the money given to the poor. I wonder if we should have such a big house in the first place.

I wonder what God really desires for the church. Do we deserve all this stuff? My husband is an engineer, we make a comfortable living, but there is that word again.. comfortable, are we meant to be comfortable? For some reason the fact that Jesus had “no place to lay his head” is running through my mind this morning. He did not amass great riches in this world. He could have, He could have had a nice big house filled with gold; not interested. He was interested in bringing good news to the poor and healing the sick. He was interested in teaching a motley crew of men about the Kingdom of God and how they were going to help build it. He was too caught up in rebuking the rich and powerful to want to be one of them. He was on a mission and He didn't let the riches of this world keep him from the cross he was to die on, or the victory he would gain in his resurrection.

Luke 12:16-21

The Message (MSG)
16-19 Then he told them this story: “The farm of a certain rich man produced a terrific crop. He talked to himself: ‘What can I do? My barn isn’t big enough for this harvest.’ Then he said, ‘Here’s what I’ll do: I’ll tear down my barns and build bigger ones. Then I’ll gather in all my grain and goods, and I’ll say to myself, Self, you’ve done well! You’ve got it made and can now retire. Take it easy and have the time of your life!’
20 “Just then God showed up and said, ‘Fool! Tonight you die. And your barnful of goods—who gets it?’
21 “That’s what happens when you fill your barn with Self and not with God.”



What if God has given you and me a terrific crop? I know that God has abundantly blessed me and Jeff. We have more than we need and we delight in giving much away, but I wonder if we should be giving more away. I wonder if we should stop buying whatever we want whenever we want. I am full of questions right now but I am fearful of what the answers may be. I don't want to be that fool who builds bigger barns to store his grain when he has neighbors who are starving. Jeff and I are joining Lincoln Academy as tutors once a week. I know God is going to open our eyes to the poor. We are going through adoption/foster care classes at DHR which has already pretty much shocked me in the depths of abuse and poverty these sweet babies endure. We are in a new season as a family. I am not sure what everything will look like when the dust settles, but I am sure of the God who blows the wind. Pray for us on our journey into loving on the poor and into opening our home to foster and adopt.
When Jesus comes calling I don't want him to find me fast asleep surrounded by stuffies. I want him to find that he is my comfort and peace.

The Gift of Prayer

I just woke up from a dream in which I was praying for a group of ministry leaders.  At the end of my prayer one of them came up to me and told me that she does not have the gift of prayer.  In my dream I told her that prayer is a gift that we all have and in the unwrapping of it, we see it's beauty.  Profound dream. I have been thinking often about prayer in the past few days. I have been wondering how many of us actually engage in it, how many of us actually unwrap the gift of prayer and see God's beauty in it.  I have had people ask me to teach them to pray. I have had people just kind of look at me like I am totally nuts when I pray.   I love to pray. I love to pray because when I pray I feel like God reveals his heart to me. It isn't that I am going to change God with it, but I feel like He changes me by giving me a glimpse of what he is doing and what He is inviting me witness.

For some reason, the prayer that is sticking out in my mind right now is Hannah's prayer when she wept at the Temple for God to heal her baroness. She was a blubbering mess.  The Priest, Eli, thought she was drunk at only 9 in the morning. She wasn't drunk, she was heart broken, and she longed for a son.  Her prayer wasn't eloquent. She didn't stand on those steps and make proclamations about how God was going to give her a son.  She wept, sobbed them out, and with every painful tear that rolled down her face, and with every desperate "please", God heard her.  He gave her a message through Eli that she would have a son.  I know this kind of prayer. I have wept at the altar myself, and with the cries of my heart, God gave me an answer.  He brought comfort.  Go ahead and weep there until he brings peace, tell God you are not leaving until your heart is right.  You aren't leaving that place of weeping prayer until your mind is at peace.  He may not promise you what you are longing for, but He does promise a peace that surpasses all understanding.

Hannah's prayer was very personal but praying for some one else or for the church is also important.  God is inviting you into their journey through prayer. For a moment you get to pick up the mat they sit on and bring them to Jesus, or you get to join them in rejoicing for the miracle God will or has accomplished.  It is an invitation into their story.

James 5:16

The Message (MSG)

 ^16-18Make this your common practice: Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you can live together whole and healed. The prayer of a person living right with God is something powerful to be reckoned with. Elijah, for instance, human just like us, prayed hard that it wouldn't rain, and it didn't—not a drop for three and a half years. Then he prayed that it would rain, and it did. The showers came and everything started growing again.

Prayer is a very vulnerable thing because we may have little faith that it actually works.  You may be hesitant to pray for someone because you are afraid God is going to lose face.  If you pray this prayer and it doesn't happen then what?  Will this person go into a crisis of belief and run away from God?  Will I?  James 5:16 says we are to pray for others in their needs.  I say go for it!  God can handle his reputation.  I give one piece of advice as you pray:  Listen to God.  God will lead you to pray what He wants you to pray for the one who is hurting.  He knows what they need, He knows what their pain is like, He knows what is broken, He will tell you how to pray. 

Each time I go to pray for someone I feel a little bit vulnerable. I have this thought that if I pray what I believe God is asking me to pray this person will think I am out of my mind.  Last fall I prayed for a new friend. I went at it will all I had, I finally prayed that God would restore her son to her for his senior year of high school.  When I looked up from prayer I realised that she didn't think it possible.  Guess who moved home last week.  She has her son sleeping in his bed in her home for his senior year.  Another time recently I was praying for a sick friend. I knew that God had asked me to join Him in interceding for this friend but it was some thing I felt was out of my league. I yielded and went for it.  I felt like God was laying the word "hypothalamus" on my mind. While I was praying for my friend I was trying to ignore God's voice telling me to pray for her hypothalamus. I finally let go of my fear and prayed the blessings of God on my friend's brain. I didn't know what the hypothalamus did or where it was in her body. I was afraid I would look like an idiot.  When I went to my car, I looked it up on-line and it is a part of the brain that controls many of the systems with which my friend has trouble.  God does that in prayer. He shares His heart so we know what to pray.

I have seen many answers to prayer and I have seen God move in ways He has laid on my heart in prayer.  Please know that I am not just that girl who prays.  You can pray too. You can pray and when you pray listen to God's heart. Each Sunday when Jeff and I get up to pray we ask God to lead us. I don't want to go up there and make clever speeches disguised as prayer. I want to go up there and stand before God's beloved and pray God's heart for her.  I submit to God. I ask Him to do what only He can do. I ask Him to lead us in prayer according to His heart.  He shows up. He moves.  He leads.  When you pray ask God to lead you. Ask Him to show you His heart.

You are a part of a body so don't do all your praying alone.  Pray with your family.  Pray with people who have more practice than you. I have learned so much about prayer through praying in community.  Learn something from your brothers and sisters who pray, and pray, pray, pray. I often wonder what the church and the city would look like if all of God's people were really praying.  The walls of our churches would not be able to contain the fruit of those prayers.

And when you pray, feel free to pray for me too.